Thanks for All of It
It’s been some
time now that I’ve associated the idea of midlife crisis with the end of the “I
can be anything and do anything” opportunities and optimism of younger years
when most everything in life is still at least a theoretical possibility.
I now reflect that
a contributing factor to whatever sort of midlife ennui is experienced may also
be associated with the unnerving awareness that the morning when I wake up and
sense I am fully equipped to handle whatever this day brings may not come.
Only a decade ago,
I was aspirational that I could follow a plan and get things in order based on
an underlying paradigm that there was a certain age at which, if one tried hard
enough, one arrived at the place of knowing how life worked. Even five years
ago, I still believed that I could learn enough, improve enough, practice
enough to really get the hang of living life and at least master most of the
basics – leaving myself open, of course, for new adventures. The idea that I
would someday a…